BADD 2013: It Starts With Us

It’s Blogging Against Disabilism Day 2013! A day dedicated to speaking out against disability discrimination of any kind, life obstacles of those with disabilities, etc.

I have been absolutely devouring the amazing posts that are flowing through today; there are some great writers with great thoughts and ideas out there in the Blogosphere. I encourage you to check out Dairy of a Goldfish, where all the posts will be listed, or the BADD Facebook Page.

This is my third year participating in the day. Two years ago, I wrote about intelligence and interacting with people with disabilities. Last year, I missed the actual BADD day, but my post about the dance of Cerebral Palsy brought you into my world of living with a disability, if only for a moment.

This year? Well, buckle up. I don’t really know how the idea for this post came to me or how it’s going to work into the theme of this day, but here we go. Knowing that BADD was coming up, I’d been jogging my brain trying to figure out what I wanted to put out in the world as a person with a disability.  My one small voice.

It’s taken me the better part of 24 years to be “okay” with having a disability.   I think some of this is because I tended to live life with blinders on and not even pay attention to it.  I had great friends and family who helped make it a non-factor in my life and, while this was a blessing, it also was a little bit of a curse.  Full disclosure: I hate that cliche, but I couldn’t think of anything else to write.

But then…life hits you. People are often rude or ignorant, situations aren’t ideal, you’re forced to be independent at times when you’d been used to relying on someone by your side. You can no longer wear those blinders, because this is real life. It’s not going to stop while you adjust.

There comes a point in your life when you have to recognize your situation and your limitations.  Being an adult now (arguably anyway-my sisters will tell you I’m still the baby), that point has come hard and fast over the past few years.  Now, trust me. I’m not, in any way, at all, ever, ever, ever (got it?!) saying that you should be defined by your limitations or let them control your life.  Quite the opposite actually. Recognize and understand them so that you can live your life for you and move beyond them, if that is the path you choose.

How does this fit into BADD?! Hold your breath, because some of you might not like what you’re about to read…

If you don’t want to be discriminated against, start by not discriminating against yourself.   

Simple as that, right? No. I’m not naive. I know it’s not that simple, but it’s the initial step on a long journey. Think logically for a second, and this goes for anyone whether you have a physical disability or other obstacle in your life, if you don’t want someone else to judge you, limit you, or assume something about you, why would you do those things to yourself? You tell your best friend that they can do anything they want, but then you tell yourself that you can’t? That doesn’t sound right to me.

I’ve learned something very valuable on my journey, and even more so now being a fitness instructor of a class for people with various limitations, and that is that we as people with disabilities are the role models of how other people with disabilities should be perceived and treated.  Whether we want to be or not.

Want people to believe in you, to give you a chance?

Believe in yourself.

Want people to treat you with respect and dignity?

Respect yourself.

Want people to understand just how strong you are, that you are not to be pitied?

Show your strength, do not pity yourself. 

Want to be heard, to leave something in this world?

Speak up and don’t be afraid to be a little vulnerable. Let people in.

IT STARTS WITH US!

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You Are Stronger Than You Think

It seems that many of my posts have focused on the gym and fitness as of late.  I would apologize for this, except I really can’t because it would not be remotely close to sincere. The truth is, this is me. I live fitness. I live health. I live trials and triumphs, moments of weakness and feats of strength, and everything in between. This is my new found love and life force, and I would not trade it for anything.

That said, please come with me on another journey.

Late last night, I finished reading an amazing memoir Waking by Matthew Sanford.  Matthew is a man who, at age 13, was in a car accident that left him with a T4 spinal cord injury.  Matthew writes of learning to navigate life in his now “silent” body, and how his discovery of mind-body relationship led him to physical and emotional healing and his eventual practice as an adaptive yoga instructor in Minnesota.  Fitness friends, family, and all other readers: do yourself a favor, whatever your beliefs and practices, and pick up a copy of this book.

I went to bed feeling deeply touched and satisfied, but more than anything else I felt hopeful.

My alarm went off at 7:15 this morning for Saturday morning gym session. I could have rolled over and gotten a few more hours of sleep. I could have said I’d be going Sunday, Wednesday, and Friday next week because I’m off work. I could have said it was the holidays. I had 1, 000 excuses to choose from. I chose hope.

Today’s class was a challenge from go since I have been dragging it after being sick and making a slow comeback. Interval training followed by TRX training.  For those unfamiliar with TRX, it is a Suspension Training, full body workout system that uses gravity and your bodyweight to perform a variety of exercises.  You are in complete control of the difficulty of your workout simply by changing your body position. This is a confusing explanation, so check out this quick video. 

The class was instructed to do one specific move, that started out holding on to the ropes to do a low row (think pulling your chest up to an imaginary bar from a slightly slanted standing position…or don’t imagine it, I’m doing a horrible job explaining things in this post….just take my word for it!), then drop down into a squat, and pull themselves back up.  I did not have the balance to be able to drop myself into a squat without falling and potentially cracking my head open, so it was time to modify! Yay!

I started the exercise by sitting on the floor slightly leaned back and performed my row. From there I was to lift my body off the ground as dead weight with only my heels as the anchor point. Failed attempt after failed attempt began to leave me more than a little bit frustrated.  At this point, Janice came over and foot blocked me so I wouldn’t completely go sliding and I tried again.

Note: Everything from this point on might sound utterly ridiculous to some, but this is what I believe can happen and this was my experience. I closed my eyes and tried to connect my mind and my body in a way that I had read about only hours before. I needed to feel the energy of my heart, of my will, and somehow transfer that energy into my legs, into my core–to come together and achieve this small goal for the day. I inhaled deeply and I could feel the connection. With what seemed like unimaginable strength, I felt my arms start to strengthen and slowly lift by body. I felt my core muscles engage and noticed that the only physical point of connection I had was at my heels.  This was it. I trusted my mind and it got me through step one. Now it was time to trust my body. A 10 second hold of this position was what was being asked of all of me. Closing my eyes again, I hoped. I pleaded with my body to outlast the time. I know I beg a lot of my body on a daily basis, but I needed this one, because I knew I could.  Janice, standing above me, said “trust your body, you are stronger than you think”. And I believed before those 10 seconds disappeared.

Then I collapsed on the ground and started hysterically laughing because all I wanted to do was cry.  The tears came later on in the day, when my soul processed what occurred in the gym. Today, for the first time, even if for maybe only a total of 30 seconds, I fully trusted my mind and my body. The results were awesome.

Until next time…inhale hope, exhale strength…

Extraordinary Moments

Reblogged from my friend Jocelyn’s Tumblr account…

30 EXTRAORDINARY THINGS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW. 

1. A baby is taking it’s first few steps without falling.

2. Two people somewhere in the world, are falling in love.

3. Somewhere, someone is admiring a breathtaking sunrise, and somewhere else, a surreal sunset.

4. A soldier of sorts is diligently fighting the fight so you don’t have to

5. Someone who suffered from a severe injury last year is back on their feet.

6. A small group of people are building something that will soon make the impossible possible.

7. Somewhere on Earth a double rainbow is stretched from one end of the horizon to the other.

8. One of the next Billboard-chart-topping musical artists is patiently rehearsing in her garage.

9. A piece of literature is being written that will eventually change your perspective on life.

10. A friend is helping a friend rise above thoughts of suicide.

11. People of various religious backgrounds are in temples, churches, mosques and other places of worship praying, wholeheartedly, for world peace.

12. An elderly couple is celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary.

13. Two best friends are laughing so hard that they aren’t even making any noise.

14. A firefighter is running into a burning building to rescue a perfect stranger.

15. Someone in your hometown genuinely wants to be your friend.

16. A new mom is lying in a hospital bed and holding her baby twins for the very first time.

17. Someone is taking a shower and singing happily at the top of their lungs.

18. There is someone out there who smiles when they think of a specific moment they once shared with you.

19. An alcoholic just celebrated one full year of sobriety.

20. Volunteers in major cities all over the world are working at homeless shelters caring for those who are less fortunate than themselves.

21. A high school athlete just broke their own personal record.

22. Two teenagers just received their very first kiss ever from each other.

23. Someone is hugging a friend who desperately needs it.

24. Someone just placed their spare change in the charity collection cup at the grocery store.

25. A small group of friends are sitting around a table sharing funny stories and cheerfully reminiscing about the good old days.

26. Honest people are working for various government entities to help protect your basic human rights and civil liberties.

27. An emergency room surgeon is in the middle of saving his patient’s life.

28. Someone is holding the door open for the person behind them.

29. Someone out there is missing you and looking forward to your next visit.

30. We are reminded that extraordinary things happen to ordinary people, and that there is beauty and wonder in everyday life

Photo Credit: OpenFX.org

The fight of your life.

So, I needed a one credit class to fulfill some requirements this semester and decided to take a 5.5 week Advanced Editing and Revising course. I’ve always loved to write, but never really knew what to do with my writing. I figured this class would be a fun distraction from the rigors of all my other courses and give me time to do something that I love, but never get a chance to do. We had one assignment over the five weeks. We wrote one paper based on a metaphor and use of conceptual blending–basically trying to convince people that the metaphor is best through the use of language. I don’t necessarily know why I feel the need to post this to the blog, but I’m extremely proud of it, and it’s been so long since I actually sat down to blog (even if I only have one loyal reader! :))I’ll appologize now for the length, but I couldn’t figure out how to post the actual document, so if anyone knows how to do this, feel free to let me know. Happy reading!:) Hope you all enjoy it!

This has been years in the making. She’s waited for it for longer than most people even care to think about. Everything around her has become quiet and the only thing that she can feel is the beat of her own heart and the movement of her legs beneath her as they start to journey into the unknown ahead. She is shaking, but it is the good kind of shaking, if there is such a thing. As she lets go of all her inhibitions, everything starts to come together. Her goal is going to be accomplished and she’s finally going to get her gift that everyone has been telling her about. She steadies herself and takes one jagged, off-balance step forward with her left leg. The right follows directly behind. Okay, sure, people complete this task every day, hundreds of times a day. You see however, this young girl has Cerebral Palsy, a neurological disorder in which messages from her brain often do not get sent to other parts of her body correctly. These small movements are huge to her. They are nothing short of life-changing and incredible. She exhales and begins to realize what just took place. Every joyous emotion seizes hold of her body and she can’t help but let out her excitement. “It’s finally over. I’ve finally won this battle. I’ve finally done it. My gift is here!” She’s taken steps by herself. This moment is one that almost everyone told her would never happen. It seems like nothing could compare to the mentally and spiritually grounding gift this accomplishment has provided her with. As those words leave her lips, she takes the box that is presented to her, a physical token of her accomplishment given to her by her physical therapist. She removes the lid and starts to search through the box for this gift that he has been telling her about for so long. The environment around her begins to shift. The box is empty, but she keeps going farther and farther to the bottom, determined to see what it could be. As quickly as it began, it’s slipping away. “I don’t understand”, she yells. “Where is this amazing gift you’ve been telling me about for five years?” There is no answer coming from her physical therapist. In fact, there is no one around to even answer her. She looks around and the only person she’s left with is herself. She’s standing in her walker yet again. Staring down into the box, searching one last time for an answer, she can’t even see the bottom. All of the sudden, the truth hits her, a swift left hook to the jaw. She has been fed the wrong information all these years. This isn’t a true gift she’s received at all. This is a boxing match. She thought she’d reached the end, but that was only the first round and no one really knows just how long this match will last. She doesn’t even know how she got here.
A girl sits in the locker room, a patient waiting to be called into the doctor’s office. She has never felt more alone in her head, even with all the people circling around her, there for the same reason. They’re all going to be a part of this fight in some way or another. She tries to focus on the video tape playing a few feet away from her, the packets of information being handed over to her parents from the orthopedic doctor, the man who will be coaching her through this fight for the rest of her life. Over and over again she watches her opponent on the screen trying, unsuccessfully, to make sense of the brain scans that are up against the wall and have mapped out the list of fights she will compete in for the rest of her life, trying to plan how she can stand up to the challenge that is about to be placed in front of her. The statistics are being fed to her by the coaches around her. “Many people are faced with this fight,” they say, “and many, if not all will win, but not without a lot of hard work, sacrifice, and mental and physical agony.”
Close your eyes. Just take a moment and imagine a famous fight. Any fight is fine, but for me it’s Frazier vs. Ali, their first fight. It’s the fifteenth round and both men are clearly looking beaten down. There are about two minutes left in the fight and Frazier knocks Ali to the ground—the first time for the entire fight. Ali looks physically and mentally shaken. He is staggering back and forth as if he is combating some sort of seasick feeling. He is sweating enough to fill up his water bottles and seems to be arguing to himself, trying to shake off all the pain he is in. He is thrown fiercely back into the reality that he may not be the stronger man in this fight after all. That is what it is like for this prized fighter as she replays the statistics over in her head. It is in that moment of heading back to reality that she begins to see the differences. Her world moves a little slower, a bit more off balance. With that realization, the boxer slowly enters the ring. She now is accepting the fact that this fight may not be a fair one, but there is no way that she can just give up and let the referee count her out. She is shrinking under the weight of her losses; clearly the underdog, but ready for one last round…or so it seems.
There is constant sparring going on in her mind. “Do I give up or keep fighting?” “They all said I would never amount to anything.” “My brain is telling me I’m not strong enough to handle these punches, but my heart says I’m ready for anything. Which do I choose?” She finds herself constantly in motion, the boxer’s shuffle, moving back and forth between the past and the present with each punch thrown at her, each unsteady head feint her body must make to get away from her past as quickly as possible. As she struggles into the ring, she remembers the fight she’s faced each day of her life; a different battle, but one just as demanding. The microphone drops from the ceiling, and the ring announcer’s words shake the girl and the crowd, those that are always on the sideline of her life, wanting to lend a steadying hand when she is falling down, but just the slightest bit out of reach. They see the signs scrawled all over the face of the boxer, but they do not want to believe them. The familiar sound of her doctor’s voice comes over the room as they all hear “In the far corner, wearing blue, we have Cracking Perfection. Weighing in at 6 feet tall, 1 ton, it has a near perfect record with only one loss.” This may seem like it is a quite large size for the average fighter, but that is because CP looks average. These statistics, its monstrous size, are hidden and no one would know had they not been read out loud. Another hidden problem of CP is that even that one loss wasn’t really a full loss, because it was still constantly with the other fighter, so it was marked a no contest. This other fighter showed signs of being taken down by Cracking Perfection, but ended up being transported into another boxing ring and facing a different diagnosis. The highlight reel rolls across the Jumbotron, the patient being observed by her team of doctors as she walks down the hall, for the crowd, and the announcer’s voice comes back. “Now get ready for a clean, but hard fight.” The tale of the tape has been spoken for everyone in the arena to hear. The opponent, previously masked by shadows, finally emerges and becomes clear. He is rough and rugged. He doesn’t look quite as large as she imagined, but she’s heard the stories. She knows that all it takes is a look into his smoky grey eyes and all the fight will be unleashed within him.
Getting ready to face the fight, she wants to feel strong and assured. In her mind she does. In that place deep down inside of her, she believes she just may have a chance. However, in her body, a completely different story is being told. She steps into her walker, a boxer leaning against the ropes for one last encouragement and sense of stability. Most of the time, she lives her life with careful and detailed planning, making sure that she knows at least two steps ahead of where her life is headed, but sometimes she enjoys going on instinct. She enjoys the challenge of putting her heart and soul out there, as she is doing in the ring, and seeing what will come next. This is what happens next. She throws a left jab, the impulsive thought of how great her life would be if she could be rid of Cerebral Palsy, if only for one day. But she must accept the consequences of her actions, not anticipating her opponent’s next move well enough before executing. With that, her disability—the Frazier to her Ali—her opponent quickly and effortlessly counters, knocking her to the ground.
This fight has always been different for her. There was no training involved in this fight. She did not choose her opponent or to fight at all. She was simply thrown in the ring, guard down, hoping for the best. It must be made clear that, even though there are times when she may seclude herself or feel as though she’s alone, she has never truly been alone in this fight. She’s been going to physical therapy since she was a year old, the conditioning to try and maintain her abilities, but not formal training. Her physical therapists, the corner men giving her tips and pushing her every step of the way, were the only people she felt most trusting of, and even that was never one hundred percent.
Her parents, the more reserved of the spectators, the fans watching her fight on television from the comfort of their own couches, had chosen to step back for her own protection. She knew they were there, but didn’t always need to be in the forefront to feel supported. They knew how easily she would anger if she knew they were getting excited over every punch thrown. For this reason they’d find themselves only cheering when they knew she couldn’t really hear, careful not to break her concentration or push her too much into her harsh reality that every punch she threw was really that big of a victory. She didn’t want to think about how truly tough this was. She just wanted to fight and win.
The obnoxiously loud roar of the crowd draws her out of her internal reflection and back into the moment. In each scream, boast, and encouraging word, she can hear the distinct voices of each one of her friends—her ringside supporters. Some are the ones that have been there for every punch, kick, laugh, cry; and others have been the referees in the ring, literally picking her up many times after getting knocked down. This has happened more times than she can count. There were times on the playground when she thought she would try the jungle gym just like the rest of her peers. Then there were the more figurative times like in fourth grade when she found out she had to have another hip derotation surgery because the first one was ineffective. They’ve been there for her to wipe her gloves off on and take a standing eight count to get settled. It is through each of these spectators, whether on television or in person, that she finds it in herself to continue to come back and face this fight again and again. You see, there is a catch here. This may be the final round in her match, but she relives that final round day in and day out. Each new day is a new final round, and it doesn’t look like the final bell will ring anytime soon.
Many of my own experiences are intertwined within this fighter’s story. In fact, I am the fighter. For me, the true pain displayed in the ring is real. It is rough and raw. There are many more times of pain and anguish than there are of joy and excitement, but the sacrifice and conditioning and tears you put into those painful times make the rewards of accomplishing the goal that much sweeter whether it is simply making it through the day, or taking your first steps at twenty-one years old. For some people though, this metaphor is a little bit too honest. It’s a little bit too much of a test for the fairytale world people want to live in. Individuals living in this world, tend to live by the misguided belief “Living life with a disability is a gift.” This misconception comes from a more societal perspective of looking at a disability than an individual perspective. The disabled community often hears that you can use having a disability to show your true strength and personality in overcoming adversity, which might be a very convincing point if it weren’t for one glaring fallacy—this statement is often said by people who do not, themselves, have a disability. Many of these people may not even know someone who has a disability at all. This phrase, many times, can be traced back and based on faith. For example, certain Christian denominations such as Catholicism often look at challenges like disabilities as a grace from God that is given to show others how their God loves all people and creates everyone in these unique and amazing ways because they all have something special to offer the world around them (Zach, 2009). Many articles and disability blogs have had posts that cited their reasons for feeling this way were that it was important to stay in touch with their limitations so as not to act too high and mighty and that they were better than other people.
Also, many who have faith of some type believe that is it extremely important to be strong and determined in going out and putting everything you have into something you believe fully in, as well as yourself. Though sometimes I may doubt that view, I also count myself as one of those individuals. I live by the idea that nothing matters more than that one piece of your life you can’t see yourself living without and you must do everything in your power to always make sure it is within your grasp, even if you end up bruised, beaten, and battered in the process. These people know that, within a weakness lies an even more powerful strength. Again, one of the stronger places that this was shown through others was through the repeated posting of one Bible passage. It comes from 2 Corinthians 12: 9 and goes as follows: “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (New International Version, 2002). For some people, this is enough of an explanation—to know that in their weakness, God will be there for them and make them strong.
I will pose the question to you, though it is not one that, under normal circumstances, you would normally have a choice to answer. Which of these metaphoric representations would you choose to believe and regard as truth? Which of these explanations has more to offer? Just think about which sounds more interesting on the surface, a disability as a gift or a disability as a boxing match? Sure gifts are great. They are shiny and mysterious and are fun to unwrap but, they are also safe. After you open a gift, what do you do? You put it on or play with it a few times and then it sits in the bottom of your closet for years. Boxing matches, on the other hand, are full of possibilities. There is constant action, unpredictability, and a sense of adventure and rush of adrenaline whether you are a participant or a spectator. I’ll pose the question again. Which of these explanations has more to offer? Where can you see yourself? The boxing match? I had a hunch that’d be your answer which leaves us to deduce that the metaphor “Living life with a disability is like the final round in a boxing match” fits much more accurately. A disability like Cerebral Palsy that this fighter was given is not a Christmas or birthday gift from your great aunt Helen that can be returned or traded in if it is ugly or doesn’t fit you right. It stays with you through every knockout fight, dizzying punch, and agonizing defeat. Cerebral Palsy is not something that you can hide away in the closet until it has a purpose. In fact, there is no hiding it at all. It cannot be masked by big muscles or the fighter’s robe. It is one disability in the bunch that is almost always going to be visible to the eye of any passerby. The patient’s walker, wheelchair, or cane giving away the deficit, a Band-Aid covering Holyfield’s gnawed off ear. And let’s not all forget that generally, as children, we ask for gifts that we want to receive. We carefully choose from the catalogs and construct our ideal lists to give our parents. I’m pretty sure I have never seen a one-year-old child say to her mother, “I’d like to have Cerebral Palsy for my birthday. Pretty please Mom.” If we, as a disabled community, really wanted to face these challenges every day, all we would do is strip ourselves of all assistive devices or aids we need and see just how far we could make it and how long our strength would hold us.
Here we are again, watching the boxer in the ring face her seasoned, rugged, and unforgiving opponent—Cerebral Palsy. It all seems like the perfect scene out of a Rocky film, until you start thinking about the logistics of the fight unfolding before your eyes. Boxers are trained and competitive athletes who spend hours upon hours in the gym working for a something they chose to be a part of. While this boxer may be a diligent physical therapy patient when she trains now, she did not voluntarily enter into this training. She did not know it was going to literally take the wind out of her many times. She had this training thrust upon her in the form of weekly stretching and bodily manipulation. Every week, twice a week, for one hour a day, she would be poked and prodded by her coaches, all in the name of making her “better”. They would take measurements of her abilities and tell her areas in which she was lacking. Then, as if they would always be right beside her forever, they would give her the ever so reassuring, “Don’t worry, it can only get better from here. We’ll make it work.” And send her out the door to face everything again. This would be intimidating to anyone, let alone a young girl.
A startling noise erupts from the crowd and she is drawn out of logical thinking and back into the ring. She is forced back into this fight, both physically and mentally, that does not seem to be letting up. Cerebral Palsy presents the awkward dilemma of our legs not working in conjunction with our brain on a minute-by-minute basis. In the literal sense, type of physical confusion presents itself almost exactly the same in the boxing ring and that is why the crowd is on their feet right now. The boxer just took a punch directly to the chin. Scientifically speaking, her brain has been recoiled against the back of her skull then immediately against the front. This causes a double reaction of neurons firing and failing to receive the proper message due to overload (Rose, 2008). She staggers backwards trying to shake it off, but is unsuccessful and finds herself spiraling down onto the floor of the ring. Our fighter has “lost her legs”. That is, her brain cannot get the messages across to have strength in her legs to stand up, causing her to fall immediately to the ground and lose her focus physically and mentally. Cerebral Palsy has just gained momentum over the boxer in one of the harshest ways possible. With that staggering determination that she must always display, she drags herself to her feet, using the ropes, her main assistive device, the walker, for her strength and support along the way.
The fight continues to unfold, the boxer getting beaten down with every punch, and all the spectators are watching in some sort of awe. You can see the confusion on their faces. One friend shouts, “Wait a minute. What about the three knockdown rule?” That’s just it. There is no three knockdown rule in the fight with Cerebral Palsy. No matter how many times she gets knocked down, she must always get back up. She is not like any other boxer, and this is not like any other fight. She cannot choose to give in and surrender. She cannot just walk away from the fight and hope for better luck next time. This thought angers our fighter more than you could even imagine. “How could I be so easily defeated?” she asks herself. “That is not the type of person I am. That is not the type of person I ever want to be.” This anger and determination unleashes a drive within her that she has experienced in only one other setting—her physical therapy clinic. Almost instinctively, she throws repeated one-two punches directly at the sides of Cracked Perfection’s rugged face. Unexpectedly, he is shaken by this sudden change of defense tactics and can’t withstand the pressure. He falls to the ground and, before she can realize what just happened, the referee counts to ten and raises her hand in the air declaring her the winner of this fight. The fighter does not believe it. She’s beaten the odds and won the fight against one of the toughest opponents out there. The crowd around her lets out a loud roar of approval. The smile on her face is not unlike the ones you see on the faces of just married couples or new parents. The smile stretches as wide as possible.
The fighter leaves the ring and walks down the narrow hallway toward the locker room, her reentry into a world where there aren’t quite as many barriers, a “normal” world for most others. She is surrounded by flocks of people from the spectators of her family and friend, to reporters who become the doubters, to hear doctors and physical therapists who have coached her along the way. She finally reaches the door to her locker room. All she can think about is the ice bath waiting for her and the trainer who will be waiting to dress her wounds. As she opens the door, she knows something is not right. This can’t be happening. As the door opens fully she sees that this is not her locker room. Instead, she faces another arena no different than the one she just left. She takes a step through the door and it all becomes clear. She must fight again. Though the victory has given her an amazing emotional high, it doesn’t much matter that she won the fight today. No matter the outcome, she will face the same fight tomorrow and every day for the rest of her life.
Up until this point, or maybe a few pages back, this entire story board playing out on the page; the boxing match before you, may not have seemed like all that big of a deal. It’s just another sob story. It’s somewhere between the story of another Rocky Balboa trying to overcome insurmountable odds and getting caught in the shuffle and the dramatic story with the predictable happy ending through hard work and determination. However, it’s not just that. It is much more than for the girl whose fingers are grazing the keyboard; opening her heart a little more with each word on the page. For her, it is putting truth to the thoughts, feelings, and actions that she must hide all too often because they don’t quite fit with the way everyone would like to envision her life and the way she chooses to live it. For her, it’s a plea to society to try and become even the slightest bit more aware and empathetic to the struggles and obstacles that the disabled community must face every day of their lives, with no choice but to keep fighting. That is why this boxing match is so important to her. She hopes beyond all hope that it will not only move her along on her journey through life, but also help move someone else along that might be stuck in a boxing match of their own, whoever the opponent happens to be. It is the cancer patient sparring with one last round of chemotherapy treatment. It is the young man diagnosed with clinical depression constantly ducking from and fighting with his mood swings. Within these ropes surrounding the ring lies a unique and strong hope. It is a hope that, one day, the tale of the tape will tell the real truth and will, once and for all, be in her corner and in the corners of all those in her world.